Who can answer diz???

WHY DIZ HAPPEN TO ME?? WHY?? WHY??

Again and again..diz thing keep come to me..how can I resist it??..how can I regret the thing that previously I really want..Oh my God..Ya Allah..plz give me some peace in my heart…

I agreed and I really really regret is…once upon the time..i really want to gather all my frenzs..my best frenzs in one group..so that we can learn together and having time with discussions and clerking together.just like before the Pro II exam...i tried really hard to contact some colleagues to ask whether they want to change the group so that I can bring in my frenzs to be in the same group…and after all my efforts..(bukan nak membangkit), what happen is..i lost my frenzs..

I lost all the smiles, all the jokes, all the ‘Hi’ and the sweetness of having frenzs..like I had during my PRO II..so sad..and I really sad when come thinking of it..but, what can I do??..i gathered them as during my semester break, I received calls telling me that

“I dun wanna be alone in the group..plz..”

..”what must I do?? I’m afraid I cannot cope with the group members if u’re not there too”

..”luckily u’re in the same group A’a..at least I have frenz to talk and cope with..”

“plz help me to find someone who wanna exchange the group with me..plz a’a..sedey..kita dah tak sama grup lagi”…

“xpelah A’a..nk wat camner takder org nk tukar group..biarlah kita sorg kat sini..”..
(What do you feel when ur frenz said like that?? Wanna help or not?? Being selfish or what??)

And what happen now???..u even dun want to look at my face anymore..talk with the rhythm.oh my..i dunno what to say anymore..even can’t tolerate anymore with me???..why??

If I know earlier, If I know this will happen to me..i rather stayed in my initial group..than I lost my frenzs..huhuhu….

The moral at this stage is “JANGAN UBAH KETENTUAN ILAHI..Bila dah letak satu group tu, ada hikmahnya kenapa kita nk ditemukan dengan orang tertentu..
That’s right..and how can we react when someone ask us for help?? And we know that we able to help them??

The more we get closer, the more our heart and frenship being pulled away..the more hateness I feel..the more….

Sometimes it comes to my mind…did i do wrong to you??? Is it wrong to do what’s right?? Is it I have to sacrificed myself, my frenship so that my frenzs can make frenzs with others??..am I being too selfish…

Remember..what I do, is for the sake of my frenzs..i do this and do that so that u won’t be alone..but right now..i feel alone..I LOST MY FRENZ..frenzs that I missed all the sweet memories I got before the PRO II..during my PRO II examination…

To all my frenzs…again..i can be ur frenzs when you’re alone..when u dun have anybody to talk with but plz..smile to me, talk to me and act to me like you know me before even though you already got new frenzs...dun left me as I’m an alien to u..dun alienated me..PLZ..

THANKS for the sweet events u gave to me..THANKS A LOT..
Hope, during houseman years, I won’t meet u guys anymore..SO SORRY…

Seems like I’m give up to make good things to my frenzs..rite??? skit skit la..as diz happens to me since I’m in form 4 lagi…BUT FOR ME..NEVER GIVE UP..i won’t give up..this is the test that ALLAH give to me..to test the faithful of His servant..

To Those Yang Terasa..Sorry Sangat-sangat.. I didn’t mean to hurt you but just my personal opinion that I think I need to let it out..or I will stress myself without u guys knowing that..Selfish??? depends la..

LEARNING MEDICAL IS ENJOYFUL… THE STRESSFUL IS THE VARIOUS PEOPLE WE MEET EACH DAY.. THAT’S BECOZ OF WE HUMAN ARE NOT PERFECT AND ALWIZ MAKES MISTAKES EITHER WE REALIZE IT OR NOT..