The Best Thing i ever received

after class today..i got a handwritten letter..from my friend..
after a deep breathe and switch on 'Positive Thinker mode' in my mind..i read it..again and again..every words..
Ya Allah..
actually i'm very happy to receive it..i conclude it as THE BEST TESTIMONIAL i ever received..
Thanks my dear Friend..

if u follow my posts, my blog since months ago..
for ur information, i already got what i really want. The one that will give a big effect in my life later on..

hmmm..

let me think..should share or not...

well..last time i ask my friends to correct me if i'm doing wrong..
and one of my friend (KAMU MASIH SAHABAT SAYA..) already done it..
THANKS A LOT..and its very precious (sebut mcm gollum sebut..PRRRRECCIOOOUSSSS)
tak ramai yang sanggup tegur kawan dia..
after read it..she's one of my friend yang tak patut and sangat2 TAK PATUT ilang..

TQ..=)

To all my friends..help me by correcting me..Written form very very acceptable...

FROM A FRIEND..

Apabila temanmu berubah dan bertukar keadaannya,jangan engkau tinggalkan dia,kerana sekali ia membengkok dan sekali ia melurus.

Sahabat sejati adalah orang-orang yang dapat berkata-kata benar denganmu, dan bukan orang-orang yang dapat membenarkan kata-katanmu.

The best month ever..August 2008

Meet again..my friends during my primary school...Sekolah Kebangsaan Padang Garong 2..

not face to face..in FRIENDSTER..hehe..

waiting for the plan to do some reunion...

Kenapa yer??

I've got problems with the people (certain persons) since i'm entering 4th year..we have not talk like frenz does as usual..no smiles..(sometimes yes..but not as sweet as before)..i realized that between us got something that we called "MISUNDERSTANDING"..my God..what a teribble person u r A'a..

and

i know that the only way we can get rid the condition is "Face to Face"..did i have the strength to do so?? I hope the strength and the willing will come to me and can give synergistic effect before finishing my 4th year..i want my frenz back..no matter what she thinks of me..plz forgive me..the only thing is i wanna correct the misunderstanding that have stay in both our mind since long ago.. i've got my egois too...but when i comes to FRENSHIP, SILATURRAHIM that we'd build before..it's not worth to sacrifice to destroy it juz becoz of our egois..is it rite??

Lately..nope..since (i also dun remember when..)..i always had dreams..

Dreams that we're both get back as frenz just like before..we're smiles, chatting, talking and doing things like nothing happen..even though not as good as before but we're frenz again..


How sweet the dreams are..2-3 days ago..the dreams keep coming almost every nites..can u imagine how happy i am..inside..i can smile to myself when i'm thinking about it again and again..


and


it gives me some kind of motivation that i will proceed with my plan..to get my frenz back..





To that person..if u read this blog.. I wanna u to know that..i've been prepared myself since long time ago to get the braveness to accept my mistakes, to face u..juz to make sure our SILATURAHIM is back..for the sake of Islam and our faith to Allah..


To others, doakan saya mendapat kekuatan menghadapi hari-hari mendatang dengan segala kemungkinan dengan tabah and tenang..I can't see my mistakes but all of u as my frenz can see it..and frenzs are the only hope i have to improve myself..





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Bola sepak....Paediatric posting

Salam sejahtera..

Dah seminggu masuk paediatric..belum stress lagi..still enjoy even belum dapat peluang present case lagi..next week baru bersungguh la kot…

Hati mengatakan.. ‘serik’lah buat baik dgn orang ni..coz nobody cares for you here..u there or not, is the same.. even though like that, ur family still got you..dun give up, I won’t give up..hehehe..

Tgah tension gak ni sebenarnya..smpai xleh nk stadi..yer lah..setiap hari berdepan dgn org yg mkn ikan berkerang ni susah..kita bukan xberani nk suarakan hak kita tp entahlah..takut nnti kita pun termakan ‘ikan’ tu gak..payahlah..sendiri kata sendiri buat..xmaulah..

Setiap pagi bila bagun tdo..adalah hari yg xbest..silence..euthymic..dull..alienated..ntah lah..sedih gak sebenarnya..tak tahu nk react camner setiap hari..penuh dgn hipokrit..gelak ketawa, senyum dan citer2..semuanyer terasa palsu, nothing..naper wat gtu A’a??? Ntah lah..xleh nk jawab..maybe xpaham kawan..or kawan yg mkn ‘ikan kerang’??? depan kita lain, dpn org lain. Kita ada bila di sana ada kepentingan, kita ‘hilang’ bila dah dilucut peranan…manusia..manusia…

Benci bila berjumpa dgn manusia yg cakap itu init p xsedar diri yg dia pun buat itu ini, sama macam yg dia umpatkan..wei..xusah la nk mengata org lain, nk geram dgn org lain kalo diri sendiri pun camtue..xmalu ker??? Ingat diri tu betul sgt?? Nk kepentingan pun biasalah alas an munasabah skit..ni senang2 nk itu ini..ingat org ni spare part ke???ingat org ni xder hak dan kepentingan ke??tolonglah..penatlah kawan ngan korang..penat..

Nk org hormatkan kita, tlg lah hormat org dulu..nk org wat kat kita, tlg kita itu ini, tlglah kita sendiri yg wat dulu kat org.

...ini main arah jer, main bantai jer sepak kita gi sana kemari..rasa nk sumbat gol (kepentingan), mulalah bola tu(org) digelecek leklok smpai depan pintu gol..dah masuk gol(dapat dah benda yg dia nak)..dia sepak bola and xder nyer nk terima kasih kat bola tu sebab tolong masuk dalam pintu gol..sebaliknya dia lari suka2 dgn kawan2 dia yg lain..senangkan perumpamaan ni..senang nk paham..

Kali ni malas lah nk bagitau pengajaran cam biasa2…pk2 sendiri lah..

Who can answer diz???

WHY DIZ HAPPEN TO ME?? WHY?? WHY??

Again and again..diz thing keep come to me..how can I resist it??..how can I regret the thing that previously I really want..Oh my God..Ya Allah..plz give me some peace in my heart…

I agreed and I really really regret is…once upon the time..i really want to gather all my frenzs..my best frenzs in one group..so that we can learn together and having time with discussions and clerking together.just like before the Pro II exam...i tried really hard to contact some colleagues to ask whether they want to change the group so that I can bring in my frenzs to be in the same group…and after all my efforts..(bukan nak membangkit), what happen is..i lost my frenzs..

I lost all the smiles, all the jokes, all the ‘Hi’ and the sweetness of having frenzs..like I had during my PRO II..so sad..and I really sad when come thinking of it..but, what can I do??..i gathered them as during my semester break, I received calls telling me that

“I dun wanna be alone in the group..plz..”

..”what must I do?? I’m afraid I cannot cope with the group members if u’re not there too”

..”luckily u’re in the same group A’a..at least I have frenz to talk and cope with..”

“plz help me to find someone who wanna exchange the group with me..plz a’a..sedey..kita dah tak sama grup lagi”…

“xpelah A’a..nk wat camner takder org nk tukar group..biarlah kita sorg kat sini..”..
(What do you feel when ur frenz said like that?? Wanna help or not?? Being selfish or what??)

And what happen now???..u even dun want to look at my face anymore..talk with the rhythm.oh my..i dunno what to say anymore..even can’t tolerate anymore with me???..why??

If I know earlier, If I know this will happen to me..i rather stayed in my initial group..than I lost my frenzs..huhuhu….

The moral at this stage is “JANGAN UBAH KETENTUAN ILAHI..Bila dah letak satu group tu, ada hikmahnya kenapa kita nk ditemukan dengan orang tertentu..
That’s right..and how can we react when someone ask us for help?? And we know that we able to help them??

The more we get closer, the more our heart and frenship being pulled away..the more hateness I feel..the more….

Sometimes it comes to my mind…did i do wrong to you??? Is it wrong to do what’s right?? Is it I have to sacrificed myself, my frenship so that my frenzs can make frenzs with others??..am I being too selfish…

Remember..what I do, is for the sake of my frenzs..i do this and do that so that u won’t be alone..but right now..i feel alone..I LOST MY FRENZ..frenzs that I missed all the sweet memories I got before the PRO II..during my PRO II examination…

To all my frenzs…again..i can be ur frenzs when you’re alone..when u dun have anybody to talk with but plz..smile to me, talk to me and act to me like you know me before even though you already got new frenzs...dun left me as I’m an alien to u..dun alienated me..PLZ..

THANKS for the sweet events u gave to me..THANKS A LOT..
Hope, during houseman years, I won’t meet u guys anymore..SO SORRY…

Seems like I’m give up to make good things to my frenzs..rite??? skit skit la..as diz happens to me since I’m in form 4 lagi…BUT FOR ME..NEVER GIVE UP..i won’t give up..this is the test that ALLAH give to me..to test the faithful of His servant..

To Those Yang Terasa..Sorry Sangat-sangat.. I didn’t mean to hurt you but just my personal opinion that I think I need to let it out..or I will stress myself without u guys knowing that..Selfish??? depends la..

LEARNING MEDICAL IS ENJOYFUL… THE STRESSFUL IS THE VARIOUS PEOPLE WE MEET EACH DAY.. THAT’S BECOZ OF WE HUMAN ARE NOT PERFECT AND ALWIZ MAKES MISTAKES EITHER WE REALIZE IT OR NOT..