When u are in very painful situations for sooo long..you might not be able to cry anymore..
Coz what you feel at that time was Numb.
Numbness that kills and take away your smile, your courage, your wills and even your tears.
Numbness that slowly fades away your empathy and sympathy towards others.
Numbness that makes your self think..i dont bother to want more and asking more..except from The Creator.
But..
If you are manage to get out from the Numbness, that's when you feel like..you don't want to be in that situations anymore..kind of traumatize..
And u will easily cry and cry when you think about it, coz it too painful to recall..to face it again and again.
Never Give Up my dear self.
The experience was too expensive to regret.
Believe in Allah whom never fail to listen to you, be with you, hugs you.
Such moments that only you know how does it feels.
Don't be afraid.
Don't ever give up.
It's ok to have ups and downs.
Allah is always with you..with you.